My dear Aaron,
I just peeked my head into your room to check on you. You were sleeping like an angel and I couldn't help but think about all the things we did together this weekend.
It was our very first Easter together and it was amazing. We must have hidden the eggs ten times just to watch the pure joy on your face when you found one. You light up a room with that smile, and I can't wait to fill up the years seeing it.
Your third birthday has come and gone and you got more presents than any little boy should ever get. There is no more room in your toy box, but I'm sure you will still get more toys.
You were in your first car accident this weekend. You were with grandpa and had gone to the airport to pick up grammy. At a stoplight a young girl didn't stop and hit the car behind the one you were in. In seconds four cars had been slammed together. You were scared, but not hurt. We hurried to the accident as fast as we could and I wrapped you in my arms and wouldn't let you go. I think I was more scared than you were.
We all survived and you don't seem to have any lingering fear. You are still telling us about the scary car bang, but I am pretty sure you will even forget that as soon as something more exciting happens.
I just have to tell you I love you, my sweet boy.
Sweet dreams, love.
xoxo Mommy
Showing posts with label forever home. Show all posts
Showing posts with label forever home. Show all posts
Monday, April 5, 2010
Friday, July 17, 2009
July 17, 2009 Letter
My dear sweet forever child,
I get to finally meet you tomorrow. I broke down and cried yesterday when Miss Pat, our adoption worker called me to tell me that you were ours. You are finally coming home to me. No one can tell me much about you, no one knows your favorite food or color or toy, and that makes me sad. I can't wait to find out all of your favorites. Miss Kelli is bringing you home to us tomorrow, and I can't thank her enough for picking us for you.
You are going to be the greatest blessing in my life. I'm going to give you all the love and support and stability you ever need. And no one will ever hurt you again. I won't allow it. Everyone already loves you, and they are all buying you toys and clothes right now, even though we don't know much at all.
I can't wait to hold you in my arms tomorrow and tell you how much I already love you. I hope you aren't too scared. I know it is a long way home, baby, but know that we will be there waiting for you, full of wonder and love and thankfulness that you are finally coming home.
All my love, sweetheart. Travel safely to me tomorrow.
xoxo
Mom
I get to finally meet you tomorrow. I broke down and cried yesterday when Miss Pat, our adoption worker called me to tell me that you were ours. You are finally coming home to me. No one can tell me much about you, no one knows your favorite food or color or toy, and that makes me sad. I can't wait to find out all of your favorites. Miss Kelli is bringing you home to us tomorrow, and I can't thank her enough for picking us for you.
You are going to be the greatest blessing in my life. I'm going to give you all the love and support and stability you ever need. And no one will ever hurt you again. I won't allow it. Everyone already loves you, and they are all buying you toys and clothes right now, even though we don't know much at all.
I can't wait to hold you in my arms tomorrow and tell you how much I already love you. I hope you aren't too scared. I know it is a long way home, baby, but know that we will be there waiting for you, full of wonder and love and thankfulness that you are finally coming home.
All my love, sweetheart. Travel safely to me tomorrow.
xoxo
Mom
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
April 29, 2009 Letter
To My Forever Child.!!!!!!!
Well, a day your mom and I have been waiting for is here. The Final Visit!! And let me just say, it couldn’t get here fast enough. We have been working so very hard at getting the house ready for the inspection and your arrival. Your room is almost ready. It just needs a few things…the other bed put together, toys, but most of all, someone to fill it. And that is YOU!! Soon, very soon, we will all be together. We want you in our lives so very much.
Last night your mom and I went and heard an amazing author and poet speak – Maya Angelou. Oh my gosh!! She has a wonderful way with words and can put the most complicated of topics easy to understand. One thing she talked about was “being a rainbow in someone’s clouds”. I have to tell you , you are a rainbow in my clouds!! Even though you are not here yet, you have made me a better person. I am so very happy that you will be a part of this family. I really believe our families will have the brightest, most colorful of all.
Guess what, it’s done. We had that final home inspection tonight. Two hours of questions about us and about how much we want you here. I could have gone on for many more hours about how important you are to us. Your mom and I feel pretty good about the visit. They tell us it will be a week or so until we get the results and can begin our search for you. I only wish I had the words to express how excited we are about having you in our lives. You should have seen how your mom lit up when we talked about having you in our family. She loves you with everything she has. And so do I…
Love You Always!!
Dad
Well, a day your mom and I have been waiting for is here. The Final Visit!! And let me just say, it couldn’t get here fast enough. We have been working so very hard at getting the house ready for the inspection and your arrival. Your room is almost ready. It just needs a few things…the other bed put together, toys, but most of all, someone to fill it. And that is YOU!! Soon, very soon, we will all be together. We want you in our lives so very much.
Last night your mom and I went and heard an amazing author and poet speak – Maya Angelou. Oh my gosh!! She has a wonderful way with words and can put the most complicated of topics easy to understand. One thing she talked about was “being a rainbow in someone’s clouds”. I have to tell you , you are a rainbow in my clouds!! Even though you are not here yet, you have made me a better person. I am so very happy that you will be a part of this family. I really believe our families will have the brightest, most colorful of all.
Guess what, it’s done. We had that final home inspection tonight. Two hours of questions about us and about how much we want you here. I could have gone on for many more hours about how important you are to us. Your mom and I feel pretty good about the visit. They tell us it will be a week or so until we get the results and can begin our search for you. I only wish I had the words to express how excited we are about having you in our lives. You should have seen how your mom lit up when we talked about having you in our family. She loves you with everything she has. And so do I…
Love You Always!!
Dad
Monday, March 30, 2009
March 30, 2009 letter
To my forever child;
Things are very busy right now, love. Spring break has come and gone, and with it an interesting trip to El Paso. Birthdays, weddings and deaths have all visited our lives this month, on top of class, work, and family and friends. Where does all the time go? I've been very bad lately about watching television when I should be reading, writing or cleaning. My only excuse it that television gives me an escape from all the tension building up right now. I'm still scared and excited and can't wait for you to get here. Today's letter is from one of my very best friends in the world. Her name is Karin, and she's helped me through a lot of rough stuff, and she is one of the smartest, nicest, most caring people in the world. And to top it off, she's a great mommy, has a sense of humor that I really appreciate, loves to do the same things I love to do, and has a heart of solid gold. So, without further ado, love, here is her letter to you. Enjoy it and cherish it as much as I do.
Don't forget how much I love and need you,
xoxo mommy
To you, whom I have not yet met:
Ok, so I’m supposed to write you this letter and I have no idea what to say.
So you want me to tell you how strong your new parents will be? Or how much they love you already, without having seen your face or been touched by the blessing of your smile? Maybe I could tell you how hard they fought for you, in the face of adversity and constant assurance that this might be a mistake, or too hard, or impossible. (psst. They don’t care. They love you anyway.)
No. I don’t think I’ll tell you those things. Saying-no matter who might say otherwise-is simply inadequate. You’ll experience all of that on your own. And experience is a much greater teacher than I’ll ever be.
But I might be able to give a glimpse of your new life with your forever family.
You’ll find adventure in distant lands and history and the freedom to be a child.
You’ll find cartoons and pirate ships, swordfights and hockey.
You’ll find monsters under your bed, and armed with a spray bottle, the courage to defeat them .
You’ll find laughter and love-and two people who’d die for you if given the chance-and still have enough love to spare.
On this journey, you might find heartache, and challenge, things that you don’t understand. (But don’t worry, all stories worth telling do.) It’s how you handle these things that makes you who you are,
And Crystal and Rusty will be there to make sure you don’t have to face them alone. They’ll support you and help you to become anything-anyone you want to be…
The Sky’s the limit, and Oh! The places you will go….
Karin
Things are very busy right now, love. Spring break has come and gone, and with it an interesting trip to El Paso. Birthdays, weddings and deaths have all visited our lives this month, on top of class, work, and family and friends. Where does all the time go? I've been very bad lately about watching television when I should be reading, writing or cleaning. My only excuse it that television gives me an escape from all the tension building up right now. I'm still scared and excited and can't wait for you to get here. Today's letter is from one of my very best friends in the world. Her name is Karin, and she's helped me through a lot of rough stuff, and she is one of the smartest, nicest, most caring people in the world. And to top it off, she's a great mommy, has a sense of humor that I really appreciate, loves to do the same things I love to do, and has a heart of solid gold. So, without further ado, love, here is her letter to you. Enjoy it and cherish it as much as I do.
Don't forget how much I love and need you,
xoxo mommy
To you, whom I have not yet met:
Ok, so I’m supposed to write you this letter and I have no idea what to say.
So you want me to tell you how strong your new parents will be? Or how much they love you already, without having seen your face or been touched by the blessing of your smile? Maybe I could tell you how hard they fought for you, in the face of adversity and constant assurance that this might be a mistake, or too hard, or impossible. (psst. They don’t care. They love you anyway.)
No. I don’t think I’ll tell you those things. Saying-no matter who might say otherwise-is simply inadequate. You’ll experience all of that on your own. And experience is a much greater teacher than I’ll ever be.
But I might be able to give a glimpse of your new life with your forever family.
You’ll find adventure in distant lands and history and the freedom to be a child.
You’ll find cartoons and pirate ships, swordfights and hockey.
You’ll find monsters under your bed, and armed with a spray bottle, the courage to defeat them .
You’ll find laughter and love-and two people who’d die for you if given the chance-and still have enough love to spare.
On this journey, you might find heartache, and challenge, things that you don’t understand. (But don’t worry, all stories worth telling do.) It’s how you handle these things that makes you who you are,
And Crystal and Rusty will be there to make sure you don’t have to face them alone. They’ll support you and help you to become anything-anyone you want to be…
The Sky’s the limit, and Oh! The places you will go….
Karin
Thursday, February 26, 2009
February 26, 2009 Letter
To my forever child,
I thought about you a lot last night. I was tired and cranky. I didn’t feel good, and my critique hadn’t gone well. The last part was my own fault. I didn’t stay true to myself and my story. I changed everything so that it wouldn’t offend anyone. It made me miserable, but I thought it would make everyone else happy. It didn’t. I hated it, they hated it, and in the end I was ready to give up. I was so sad, love. I needed a hug.
I don’t like that I am such a people pleaser. There are many times a day when I have to sit down and remind myself that if I’m not happy, then I can’t make anyone else happy.
Sweet baby, always remember that. If I can’t teach you anything else, remember that you can’t make someone happy if you aren’t happy yourself.
I’m not telling you to disregard other people’s feelings or needs, but don’t put everyone ahead of yourself all the time. Life is too short for that.
So, I came home with a really bad headache, a bad attitude and tears trying to fill my eyes. I really needed a hug, but the attitude got in the way, and I was a little mean to your dad. I didn’t mean to be, but everything had piled up and nothing was going right. I feel horrible about that. So, today’s letter is just as much for him as it is for you.
I didn’t say anything bad or do anything bad, I just wasn’t nice. I’m sorry I did that. I’ll try very hard never to do it again. I want you both to know how very much I love you. I need you in my life so much. Without the both of you I’d be a lost, lonely soul.
I know this is a short letter, love, but today is a very busy day. I’ll write again soon, though.
Always remember that you are deep in my heart, where all my love grows.
All my love forever and ever,
Xoxo Mom
I thought about you a lot last night. I was tired and cranky. I didn’t feel good, and my critique hadn’t gone well. The last part was my own fault. I didn’t stay true to myself and my story. I changed everything so that it wouldn’t offend anyone. It made me miserable, but I thought it would make everyone else happy. It didn’t. I hated it, they hated it, and in the end I was ready to give up. I was so sad, love. I needed a hug.
I don’t like that I am such a people pleaser. There are many times a day when I have to sit down and remind myself that if I’m not happy, then I can’t make anyone else happy.
Sweet baby, always remember that. If I can’t teach you anything else, remember that you can’t make someone happy if you aren’t happy yourself.
I’m not telling you to disregard other people’s feelings or needs, but don’t put everyone ahead of yourself all the time. Life is too short for that.
So, I came home with a really bad headache, a bad attitude and tears trying to fill my eyes. I really needed a hug, but the attitude got in the way, and I was a little mean to your dad. I didn’t mean to be, but everything had piled up and nothing was going right. I feel horrible about that. So, today’s letter is just as much for him as it is for you.
I didn’t say anything bad or do anything bad, I just wasn’t nice. I’m sorry I did that. I’ll try very hard never to do it again. I want you both to know how very much I love you. I need you in my life so much. Without the both of you I’d be a lost, lonely soul.
I know this is a short letter, love, but today is a very busy day. I’ll write again soon, though.
Always remember that you are deep in my heart, where all my love grows.
All my love forever and ever,
Xoxo Mom
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
February 18, 2009 Letter
To my forever child;
Someday, I hope you get to read this, and know how much we love you, and how much we wanted you in our lives.
We don’t know who you are yet, what you’ll look like, or if you will love us as much as we love you.
I remember growing up, when people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, my answer every time was a mommy. I dreamed of having someone to love and hold and teach and to cherish. I’ve wanted that ever since I could remember.
Three years ago, the doctor told me I couldn’t have children. Something inside me doesn’t work right. Dad and I were both upset and it took a while for us to accept that things happen. It took me longer than it took him, but I came around. I realized that you were out there somewhere, waiting for us, needing us, wanting to love us and wanting us to love you.
We were patient, waiting until we had bought our house and got settled in so that we could give you the very best home we could. We talked endlessly about the things we were excited about, scared about and ready for. We couldn’t wait for you to join our lives.
I searched for every resource I could find that told me how to adopt, how to prepare to adopt and what to expect. There was a lot of really good information, but I still didn’t know what to do.
One thing that stuck with me through all the hours of reading and studying was that we needed to do an adoption journal. We needed to record all of our feelings and the things we are going through to have the chance to have you in our lives.
I decided the best way for me to do that was to write you letters. I love to write and to read, and I hope that is something we can share soon. I want to read you bed time stories and I want to teach you to write your letters, your name, and stories and letters of your own someday.
Today hasn’t been the best day I’ve had, but thinking about you helped me feel better. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms and tell you how much you mean to me. I want to write a story about you. Tell the world how marvelous you are. Someday soon. I have to keep reminding myself that someday soon you will be with us.
I’m scared that something will go wrong, and we won’t be able to take you home with us. Dad is scared he won’t be a good dad. I know he is just being silly, and he knows I am being silly too. We already love you and need you. We have a room for you in our house. We don’t know how to decorate it though. We have bunk beds, so that you can have friends over to stay, because we both know you will have many, many friends. What if you need a crib when you come to us? We’ll work it out.
What toys do you like, sweetheart? What is your favorite food? I want to be extra sure I’m good at cooking this. What is your favorite color? What is your favorite story?
Please come home to us soon, love. We need you in our hearts.
Always remember how much I love you,
Xoxo Mommy
Someday, I hope you get to read this, and know how much we love you, and how much we wanted you in our lives.
We don’t know who you are yet, what you’ll look like, or if you will love us as much as we love you.
I remember growing up, when people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, my answer every time was a mommy. I dreamed of having someone to love and hold and teach and to cherish. I’ve wanted that ever since I could remember.
Three years ago, the doctor told me I couldn’t have children. Something inside me doesn’t work right. Dad and I were both upset and it took a while for us to accept that things happen. It took me longer than it took him, but I came around. I realized that you were out there somewhere, waiting for us, needing us, wanting to love us and wanting us to love you.
We were patient, waiting until we had bought our house and got settled in so that we could give you the very best home we could. We talked endlessly about the things we were excited about, scared about and ready for. We couldn’t wait for you to join our lives.
I searched for every resource I could find that told me how to adopt, how to prepare to adopt and what to expect. There was a lot of really good information, but I still didn’t know what to do.
One thing that stuck with me through all the hours of reading and studying was that we needed to do an adoption journal. We needed to record all of our feelings and the things we are going through to have the chance to have you in our lives.
I decided the best way for me to do that was to write you letters. I love to write and to read, and I hope that is something we can share soon. I want to read you bed time stories and I want to teach you to write your letters, your name, and stories and letters of your own someday.
Today hasn’t been the best day I’ve had, but thinking about you helped me feel better. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms and tell you how much you mean to me. I want to write a story about you. Tell the world how marvelous you are. Someday soon. I have to keep reminding myself that someday soon you will be with us.
I’m scared that something will go wrong, and we won’t be able to take you home with us. Dad is scared he won’t be a good dad. I know he is just being silly, and he knows I am being silly too. We already love you and need you. We have a room for you in our house. We don’t know how to decorate it though. We have bunk beds, so that you can have friends over to stay, because we both know you will have many, many friends. What if you need a crib when you come to us? We’ll work it out.
What toys do you like, sweetheart? What is your favorite food? I want to be extra sure I’m good at cooking this. What is your favorite color? What is your favorite story?
Please come home to us soon, love. We need you in our hearts.
Always remember how much I love you,
Xoxo Mommy
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